Twist (my neck) and Shout (for destiel)
So, if you guys are following me on Tumblr and/or Twitter, you would know I have spent the whole day or two fangirling over Twist and Shout. I apologise for being a complete nuisanceTwist and Shout is not just a song. Twist and Shout is a popular Destiel fanfic written by gabriel and standbyme.
Okay so what is this fic all about?
Synopsis: What begins as a transforming love between Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak in the summer of 1965 quickly derails into something far more tumultuous when Dean is drafted in the Vietnam War. Though the two both voice their relationship is one where saying goodbye is never a real truth, their story becomes fraught with the tragedy of circumstance. In an era where homosexuality was especially vulnerable, Twist and Shout is the story of the love transcending time, returning over and over in its many forms, as faithful as the sea.
You can read it here. It's kinda NSFW but then no one actually cares . . . right?
This isn't just a fanfic. It's one of those fanfics that offers you a ride on an emotional rollercoaster in exchange for your soul. This fanfic gives off happiness, joy and all sorts of wonderful stuff; the rollercoaster only goes up, straight to Heaven. . . until the rollercoaster goes down and in this case, it never stops going down until you've reached the epilogue.
A lot of people recommended me this fic because I guess it's one of the popular destiel fics around. A lot of people warned me about this fic. . .
But as usual, I thought to myself, "What could possibly go wrong?" I was damned the minute I said that. You know why? Because the damn fic fucked my feels so bad I can't function properly anymore.
If you saw my posts or maybe if you've read T&S personally, you'd know how I feel.
WARNING: BELOW ARE SPOILERS (KINDA). SO, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO RUIN THE SURPRISE, READ IT AND COME BACK WHEN YOU'RE DONE.
At first it was all happy and sappy. Hands down it was the cutest intro. I was literally like this,
and then Dean takes Cas on a date
blah... blah... blah... oh and those few times they fucked (pretty sure there's like three sex scenes, correct me if I'm wrong. and yes, I bookmarked all the sex scenes. Don't judge me)
but yeah, they fucked and I was pretty much like this
and the beach scene was so fucking cute I
Everything was going well, really. I don't see why people told me to have a box of tissues beside me. I mean like so far it's all kisses, Elvis and sex.
I was kinda nervous and excited at the same time. (If I could drink, I'd drink the anxiety off)
It was all good. . . until things happened. Dean is drafted in the Vietnam War.
Again, blah. . . blah . . . blah . . . (Excuse my blahs, it's 3 AM and I don't want to explain the whole story) Long story short, Adam Milligan died.
Anyway, Dean came back after being away from Cas for a long time. Soldiers never come back in one piece after war. Dean was broken after Adam's death. I guess it's the survivor's guilt. He was seriously broken, he wouldn't even speak to Cas. At some point, Dean left the apartment, leaving Cas alone.
Years later, Gabriel called Dean just to tell him that Cas was fucking dying.
I really did not see that coming, even though the authors already warned me with Major Character Death. I totally ignored the warning. I should've known.
Anyway, Dean did visit Cas after so fucking long. I fucking hated Dean for that. Turns out Cas moved to San Francisco with Balthazar (a.k.a boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend, or just a friend. I don't know. Cas loved Dean so much).
So, anyway, Cas had some weird ass disease and the doctors couldn't save him. So, before Cas died, Dean did something special for him. Not gonna explain what he did because it'll break my poor little fangirl heart all over again.
And well guess what? I thought some fucking miracle was going to happen but nope, no, I was so fucking wrong. Cas died. On a Thursday. And what a coincidence! I was reading that scene on a Thursday and it was raining. Was that fate? I don't know. I was too busy crying my life out.
I didn't stop crying. Why? Because Cas's fucking letter. I was sobbing my eyes out.
By the time I stopped crying, I reached the epilogue. I started to cry again.
Finally, I was done. I thought I wouldn't make it to the end but I did. I didn't want to, but I did.
I was sitting on my bed, my emotions are mixed in between anger and sadness. I has the post-T&S depression. I couldn't cope with my life. Who fucking knew a stupid fic can change your emotions?
I was literally like this
I am in an emotional mess. I need a hug desperately. I need someone to tell me Destiel is fine, they're both alive and well.
As you can see, this is exactly how I reacted (this isn't in the right order so deal with it)
And girl, if you think I'm psycho on Tumblr, you have not seen my twitter. I was blowing up, bursting with feels. I'm too lazy to screenshot it so go have a look and see how psycho I am.
Someone just please put a bullet through my skull because I don't want to survive T&S. I'd rather die than knowing Cas is dead and Dean is sad.
I thought this was a fic filled with sex and Elvis but too bad, death came in and hang around waiting for him time to show up.
I'm still recovering from the excruciating pain. But I'll have to live with this pain forever, probably.
I can't believe I actually thought this fic was going to be cute, gay ass scenes with sex and Elvis. I was hoping it would be all like
So, would I recommend Twist and Shout to all destiel shippers (or Supernatural fans in general)?
Don't read it. I swear to God it will mentally, emotionally and spiritually scar you for life. You will hate milkshakes, beaches, Elvis and everything that had connection to this fic. You will hate everything. You wouldn't and you couldn't recover from the fic. You'd be like Dean, broken.
But well, if you're fine with that, sure go ahead.
Read it.
Don't say I didn't warn you.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have to immerse myself with Elvis and die in an excruciating pain.
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