Mixed Feelings: A Rant

17:46 euphoria 0 Comments

Hello

Ever thought that you're somehow left out in a group? or maybe you don't know what's going on? If you have or still experiencing this, I feel the same way too.

It feels very weird sitting in between a group of friends quietly while they talk about things you don't even understand. The worst part? When you try to ask what's going on/who is this person they're talking about, they start to explain about it and when you ask why haven't you heard this before/why didn't you tell me earlier/ why am I always the last to know, they answer "Oh, that's because you don't have a phone." or "Oh you weren't there when it happened."

It's really not my fault I am blessed with not-so liberal parents who don't let me out at night or don't buy me a phone even though it is a necessity in this generation.

I just... I don't know. I feel so left out and underappreciated and ugh. I don't know how to feel anymore. It feels like having no feelings at all. I am just a walking empty, numb, pitch black abyss.

I don't even know why I started this rant in the first place....


Thanks for reading,
xx